I have failed. This could mean a bunch of different things and right now if feels like most of them probably apply. It stinks. A few other words come to mind but that is definitely not the point. The reason for existence, the reason for school, the reason for breathing is to glorify God.
Psalm 19:1 "The heavens declare the glory of God, and the sky above proclaims his handiwork." is the common verse that comes to mind and man, do I want to sit in that tonight. The HEAVENS declare the glory of God. If I felt like typing forever I could caps lock a different word each time and it still not impact my soul enough. I might need to sleep under some stars tonight because right now, failure does not feel like it glorifies God. I would love to give God the full glory and honor when I get great grades, I succeed at work, or go on a great run and feel just spectacular. THAT is when I love giving God the glory because I feel like I get a piece of it. I feel particularly worthy of giving God the glory and I like it that way. Now is not a time when I feel worthy to give God the full glory. Now is when I want to sulk in my shame and anger of my poor performance. God still reigns. God is still glorified and I certainly feel a deeper sense of trust when I look back on all the hard work of the semester and do not see a blazing "A" for every single class. I am thankful for His continual grace and call to get my eyes out of my navel and onto the blazing work of Christ crucified and resurrected to inform my failed performance!
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