"Curse the day that I began to hope there'd be a place where I belong."- Chris Rice
I think this will be good for me, allowing myself to process the day through spending time with the Holy Spirit and my laptop. Thank you, Spirit, for putting on my heart a need to belong. That word stuck to my thoughts all day today and I can see why. I have put so much energy into trying to find the right club or group to belong in. S3, Club Volleyball, Crew, Tri-Delt, Phi Lamb, Youth Group, Urban Missions, you name it, I tried it. I don't know... I failed a quiz today in Heritage and I felt like a sore thumb around campus. I have no letters to boast, and yet what an incredible opportunity to boast in the One who called me Beloved. Quiet my heart, oh Lord, of this earthly desire to belong here at Baylor, when you created me to belong to You and You alone. Fighting this has brought me up empty and I plead for you to remove this burden or allow it to glorify you in every way possible so that it becomes somewhat bearable, as You, Jesus, take it on my behalf. How I love the Spirit's work in this time, creating thoughts I never knew there. Thank you for today, regardless of how I was feeling, You, Lord, remained. Whether this Chamber thing works out, may whatever I do be for Your glory, Lord. In Christ's perfect and holy name, amen.
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