Why Can;t I find u

Spirit lead me into deeper waters, depths in which my soul has no ownership of her territory. Let my dearest memories draw me deeper into grace, that in spite of who I am who I was and who I will be, you won't fail me. Insufficiency clings to me like this palness of skin, like the roots that are no longer blonde, is this capitalizing on a deep yearning in my heart to bring out the beaty of worse feeling that draws my fingers to go beyond my feelings to compose a sonnet of pure and raw emotion.